I cry a little louder now

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by Danita Jenae 2016 IMG_2560

I cry a little louder now

because I don't want to wake you

I don't want to be alone

I'm not ok

 

I hunger but nothing comforts

I drink jars of water

but feel hollow as straw

I rest exhausted in the dark and quiet

but rest evades me

 

I walk into a room and don't remember why I'm there

even my blood doesn't want to be here

touch me anywhere

and I am painfully sore

 

I am a grateful woman

I have a joyful life

so why do I weep and slump like a willow?

I pray for healing

I know there's hope

but I feel death leaking in

I am beautiful

I am redeemed

so why do I feel like Jekyll and Hyde?

 

I cry a little louder now

because I don't want to wake you

can't you hear me?

I am not ok.